Therapy

Yesterday morning I had my quarterly breakdown. Don't get me wrong, I lose my temper often, or just feel like a loser quite a bit, but this was cry for an hour while listing all of my faults one by one to my husband, criticizing the world, afraid of the world ending, I think I even mentioned that I was worried a democrat would be elected president, and bring with them a world of doom. It was bad. Sometimes I feel like I let things bottle up for so long that when they finally come out it is crazy dramatic. Can anyone relate? Anyway Shawn was a great therapist, and walked me through each one of my muddled thoughts. I got to thinking that I would like to have a therapist. Someone who is not attached to me in anyway that I could go in and dump on monthly. Probably not much chance of working that into my schedule. But something happened last night that for me was even better than therapy. Shawn and I went to ward temple night. It is rare that we make it to the temple on ward temple night, something usually comes up to thwart our righteous efforts. However I really wanted to go last night, and we made a few sacrifices to make it happen. We sat through the session, which was overflowing, and made our way to the Celestial room. Shawn and I don't normally linger too long, I mean babysitters are eight bucks and hour, but last night we stayed a little longer. By the time we were ready to leave most of the session had made it into the room. As I was ready to exit I noticed the group we were with all looking in the same direction with great smiles on their face. As I turned to look at what they were seeing, the crowd parted and there was Richard G. Scott, in full temple clothing, he had just finished our session. I have had the opportunity to see apostles in the temple before, but in a leadership capacity, usually performing a sealing. I have never seen an apostle dressed just like me in the Celestial Room before. There is a scripture in the Doctrine and Covenants that says "If your eye be single to the glory of God, your whole body shall be full of light." That is how Elder Scott looked, literally full of light. When I looked at his face, everything fell into perspective for me. My cynicism disappearred and I felt full of love. It was almost as if Christ where there in the room with us. It seemed as if the crowd parted to let him through and we had the opportunity to shake his hand. President Eyring said that we should take the time to write down experiences where we see the Lord's hand in our life. I feel thankful that Heavenly Father led me to be in the right place at the right time, to feel this tender mercy.